miao miao

paperfaery @ 2006-08-05T11:48:00

2006-08-05T21:49:59Z

this post is just for my pal sau :)

oh and this is a picture just for sau because he forgot what i look like.. being that he never wants to hang out with me...

well. thats it for now. :)

paperfaery @ 2004-12-13T22:16:00

2004-12-14T08:18:41Z

FINALS!

three more semesters to go.. and no more school for me!@ unless i go back to get my masters in early education.

why am i writing in LJ?

i'm procrastinating, thats why! HARHAR!

procrastination is like masturbation, you're only screwing yourself in the end...

doh!

i just have one thing to say...

2004-08-29T19:20:06Z

i OWNED ant's ass in super smash bros.

wurd.

O_o

2004-08-27T08:55:00Z

dear livejournal,

im sorry ive been neglecting you. would you ever forgive me? :( if it makes you feel any better, ive been neglecting my blog also..? O_o hah.

i have no life this semester. save me :(

xo
malesa

rawr.

2004-06-09T20:42:14Z

paperfaery's LJ stalker is casperichiban!

casperichiban is stalking you because they have nothing better to do with their time. They are also stalking you in real life. Look out!

LJ Stalker Finder
From Go-Quiz.com

haha. too bad brandon doesnt use LJ anymore.

colorgenics.. WHOA.

2004-06-05T20:07:52Z

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realization of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You are full of stress at this time. It would seem that you are having more than your fair share of trials and tribulations and you are looking for a way out. You are not quite sure which way to go but the advice is - 'Stop trying so hard'.

We are all conditioned by our environment and as such we respond to people's perception of ourselves, but you feel that conditions are not right at this time. You are experiencing certain reservations that are precluding you to develop a particular relationship, business or personal, that is being offered. It is 'make your mind up time' - the decision is all yours, but whatever decision you make, it will be the right one.

You are presently experiencing excessive stress as a result of self-restraint. You act and think differently from the common herd and you want to be liked and admired for yourself and to associate with people who feel and act as you do. Because of this need to be self-reliant and to break away from mediocrity, you are finding this situation most uncomfortable and you are experiencing considerable anxiety - perhaps even more than you feel the capacity to cope with. You need to find a 'soul mate', someone whose standards are as high as your own - but where? Keep on searching... The situation is uncomfortable and you would like to break away from it, but you refuse to compromise with your opinions. You are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of necessary decisions. You are stubborn but this is no deterrent to a happy life, so why drop your standards. Think positively, everything will work out. It has worked out successfully for you in the past and it will again in the future.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.

survey fun? no.. boredom has led me to do this.

2004-05-21T09:09:45Z

*10 artists you've been listening a lot to lately:
1) black box recorder
2) metric
3) trembling blue stars
4) outkast -- roses smell like poooo oOOo oOoooooooo. geez. how can i deny that i love outkast.
5) morrissey
6) peaches -- oohh.. the teaches of peaches, how i learn from thee.
8) lost in translation soundtrack -- yeah i know its not an artist. leave me alone.
9) echo by trapt -- i dunno any of their other songs, but this song makes me smile.
10) my totally awesome mix playlists...

*9 things you look forward to:
1) hanauma bay with jillian
2) dinner #^.^#
3) cruise at the end of july
4) summer break from work.
5) min coming back from his vacation in china6) shopping
7) paycheck
8) long lunches... #^.^#
9) spending time with my mum

*8 things you like to wear:
1) uh...clothes...
2) shoes
3) panties
4) what kind of shitty ass category is this?
5)
6)
7)
8)

*7 things that annoy you:
1) people who cant drive (but im kinda of one of them ><)
2) stupid people who don't know they're stupid
3) jordan segundo
4) "reality" shows
5) when the kids dont clean up after themselves.. if theyd put away the toys where they got em, i wouldnt have to pull out my hair because of all the mess.
6) this guy who keeps calling me and doesnt get the hint
7) my messy apt...

6 things you say most days:
1) yo
2) miao
3) rawr
4) stfu?
5) happy [insert day here]!
6) "are you crazy, hello!" this is yelled at to people who cant drive or pretend they dont see me in my car and pull out of driveways, etc, switch lanes or drive 5 mph on the freeway...

*5 things you do everyday:
1) make a phone call
2) talk to myself
3) eat
4) avoid calls
5) eat a gummy vitamin :)

*3 movies you could watch over and over again:
1) donnie darko
2) fight club
3) snatch

*2 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1) love is a place - metric
2) let me kiss you - morrissey

*1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1) uh... if i get a dog... do dogs count? nah just kiddin'.. he'll chase my cat. hmm.. the person i could spend the rest of my life with is the person that could spend the rest of his life with me. hah. he must be able to really tolerate me O.o

hawaiian sun

2004-05-07T20:34:54Z

im ecstatic. even though finals is coming up.. theres just one thing i cant stop thinking about :) and i havent felt THIS happy in a while.. so this is GOOD. lets just hope i dont mess things up like usual. because if i did, i cant avoid it.

SP151 is sure going to be interesting. HEEHAW. #^.^#

quotable kindergartners:
"BOOBIES! they grow on ladies' stomachs."

paperfaery @ 2004-04-18T09:34:00

2004-04-18T19:34:31Z

a guilty pleasure.

2004-04-01T07:35:36Z

i have to admit..

i love the OC.

like omg. i hope ryan and marissa get back together. i give mad propZ to luke for scoring with that MILF. and LIKE OMG! someone DIES in the next episodes. i sure hope its not that CUUTIE PATOOTIE SETHIE. uh huh whut whut.

okay. now that THAT is out of my system..
its time for me to print notes.

i dunno who'd agree with me.. but...

2004-03-27T09:38:42Z

Hitokiri 557: do u like that group tatu
Hitokiri 557: the 2 chicks
robotsarefun: hot
robotsarefun: if i was a guy id have an erection
Hitokiri 557: hahahahhahahahaha
Hitokiri 557: but if u were a guy ud have no chance
robotsarefun: yeah
robotsarefun: oh well
robotsarefun: either way i lose

the worst feeling in the world...

2004-03-13T12:34:01Z

is knowing after you threw away something, it would have been the best thing in your life.

its like that saying..
you dont know what you have till its gone.

dear guy i met at campus center but i never got your name,

2004-03-06T09:44:59Z

nothing melts my heart more than a guy loving kids (and majoring in education)
will you marry me?

xo

say goodbye :(

2004-03-01T01:47:35Z

miao

2004-02-28T10:02:56Z

we like curry house.

these guys are awesome possums.

im just bored.
yup.

ive been such a bitch lately.
disregarding
ignoring
avoiding
a certain person and/or people
ive just been antisocial.. with a select few.
i brushed off kai. (hes kinda creepy.. but everyone deserves a chance..)
im not gonna show up for shelbys party tomorrow.
i told ca that i cant go to his friend's hotel fiasco because i have to 'study.'
ive been avoiding james.. only because i dont wanna get attached. he probably thinks i hate him and that i dont wanna be friends with him.
and i just havent been keeping in touch with people that i'd like to..
i really dont know whats stopping me.

ive lost my social skills (but then again i never really had much in the first place.)
ive lost my will to maintain friendships or to be social.
i dont exactly know why im acting like this.
for one thing, it could be my period
and another thing could be.. well.. my period
HAH.
nah. this isnt a once a month feeling.
i dunno what it is.

hug? please?

paperfaery @ 2004-02-16T11:29:00

2004-02-16T21:29:25Z

milk and cereal

VD

2004-02-15T08:40:17Z

happy valentines day.

paperfaery @ 2004-02-07T23:27:00

2004-02-08T09:27:25Z

a: i think youre beautiful
m: O_o
a: you deserve any guy in the world
a: you shouldnt rant and rave how lonely things are
a: just open your eyes and see
m: >_<
m: i do open my eyes!
m: and all i get are
m: meanies :-(
m: wahh
a: you open one way, but you forgot to look the other way
a: trust me

its nice having friends like aaron.
xo

paperfaery @ 2004-01-24T10:13:00

2004-01-24T20:17:39Z

mates of state+the thermals.

i was there for 86 list and teradactyl. (but the others were alright) its good times my friend. watching the 86 list brought back a lot of high school memories. and the best part about the night was seeing matt there. i missed that buggah. we were talking about our days back in high school. good laughs.

xo

suck my kiss.

2004-01-09T21:31:23Z

"I've been a bad bad girl
I've been careless with a delicate man
And it's a sad sad world
When a girl will break a boy
Just because she can..."

yes. these lyrics speak to me.
i dont know anymore.. i dont know what i want.
i remember a couple years back.. when someone told me i was very fickle..
[fick?le (fkl) adj. Characterized by erratic changeableness or instability, especially with regard to affections or attachments; capricious.]
of course i felt insulted and denied that i was.
however.. now that i think about it.. i can be.

i tried being with him.
at first he was growing on me a bit..
but after awhile, i got bored.
its not that he's boring..
im just bored.
maybe its because of our lack in common interests.
maybe its because im looking for something else.
something thats probably less tangible for me.
that always seems to be the case.
i have mixed emotions for him.
and im sure hes frustrated with me.
he probably hates me now.
which might be for the best...
because im horrible >_

Bring in the NEW YEAR.

2003-12-31T21:26:08Z

happy new years eve.

for some reason im not that excited. this holiday season didnt really phase me.

anyway, 2004... new years are always great. we get to "start over." and every year i always say that.. i dont think ive ever did start over. i dont think i can ever start over.. so ive come to realize that i must accept and go on. i need to learn to let go. let go of people, the past, and expectations.

2003 was.. a good year. there were a lot of ups and a lot of downs. a lot of studying and a lot of partying. ive met so many great people, yet ive lost touch with even greater people. but people come and go. this is the game of life.

:::..BEGIN TRANSMISSION..:::

MISSION:RESOLUTION 04

CODENAME:PANDATRON.
Your Mission Is To Fullfill Each Objective In The New Year. You Have Until 31 DEC, 2004 At 23:59:59.
All Objectives Are Subject To Change Due To Mission Emergencies, Changes, Or When I Gawd Damn Feel Like It.

OBJECTIVE 1: Be Less Stubborn.
Details: You don't want to turn into your father.

OBJECTIVE 2: Don't Be Too Nice/Think Of Yourself/Make Yourself Happy.
Details: Sometimes being too considerate is not the best thing. You don't have to always try to please other people. The most important question is "Are you happy?"

OBJECTIVE 3: Let Go.
Details: Don't hold grudges, don't constantly compare your past to the present, don't compare the new people you've met with the past ones you've tried to forget. Let it all go. Don't let your expectations hold you back. Be carefree.

Have A Happy New Year. GOOD LUCK.

::..END TRANSMISSION..::

now lets take a looksie at my last resolution and see how well ive done..

[ Tue Dec 31, 05:44:18 PM ]
le sigh. the year of change.
and as i can see, itll be the year of radical change.

Resolution I. I will not think so negatively. this includes my anxiety. I will not worry over the little things so much. I will let things flow. R-E-L-A-X (i still need to work on that. lets add this to OBJECTIVE 4)

Resolution II. I will excel in school rather than.. not excel. I promise! (Done. I've done well for myself 2003. Now I just gottta keep it up. Which would be OBJ 5)

Resolution III. I will quit being so stubborn ALL the time. Also I promise. (Oi. I forgot that i had this in my resolution. Well.. I still need to work on that >_<)

Resolution IV. I will reconcile with my father. Open up. (Done. We're a lot closer than before. Sorta. He doesn't get in my way.)

Resolution V. I will Improve my diet. not an eating less/to get skinny diet. a regular, steady, healthy diet (Still need to work on that. My eating habits are very bad @_@)

Resolution VI. I will Be more physically active.this i cannot guarantee. I am the laziest mofo there is (Done! Sorta.. Does walking to school everyday count?)

Resolution VII. I will get a job. Get off my lazy bung hole. (DONE!!! I love work :))

Well, I wish everyone a happy and SAFE new years. :)

Midnight wish blow me a kiss
I'll blow one to you
Make like this
Try to pretend it's true

Show me all your favorite things
Show you all mine too
Make a wish
I'll give it all to you
Hold on to your promises
Hold on to mine too
Caught like this
I'll turn it in with you

Fall apart my bleeding heart
Nothing left to do
Once in love
I'll be the death of you
-blown a wish [mbv]

wee!

2003-12-21T11:01:53Z

wowwwww the semester is overrr. time sure flies by when you're having way too much fun! -.- (HAH!)

if i get an A for my bio lab course.. 4.0, babbbyyy. CHEE! [insert more bragging remarks here].

scott.kyle.malesa after the killer bio final.

paperfaery @ 2003-12-17T16:21:00

2003-12-18T02:28:12Z

so mins chillout party was a nice release. although im mad sick.. i had my share of shots because of those damn drinking games. i really shouldnt drink. my emotions are heightened and i either get really "affectionate" or i make horrible drunk phone calls.. i called keith last night. i dont remember why i called and i dont remember much what was said. all i do remember is going to the bathroom while i was on the phone. ahahhaa. WTFFFFFFFFFF.

paperfaery @ 2003-12-13T22:44:00

2003-12-14T08:44:24Z

i guess i am flattered that keith's "infatuated" with me. but i really dont how i feel about him. its kind of hard to think about it because the other guy is running through my mind constantly. i cant forget him even though i was the one who "ended" what we had. oh bah. keith reminds me of patrick way too much. its kinda scary. but its what makes me attracted to him. well, its not a really good reason to be attracted to someone. and it is bad since things didnt work out so well with pat. i dont want to be tied down is another reason why i dont know how i feel about him. im all up for just an open relationship (even though that miserably failed with the previous..) but hes not the type for that. i admire and respect that. he deserves so much better. i dont see why he could like someone like me. im horrible.
i want to be with him but at the same time.. i want to keep my eyes out for my 'true match'. so that means hurting him will be inevitable. and i really dont wanna do that. but what the hell am i talking about? true match. psh. ill probably never find him. shet i dunno what im talking about anymore. im so tired. damn hotel parties. they make me sick. but i had my fun. wee.

GOOGLE IT!

2003-12-10T05:20:42Z

1. go to google.com
2. type in 'miserable failure'
3. press IM FEELING LUCKY

HAH!
agree? yes no maybe so? harrr