this post is just for my pal sau :)

oh and this is a picture just for sau because he forgot what i look like.. being that he never wants to hang out with me...




well. thats it for now. :)

FINALS!

three more semesters to go.. and no more school for me!@ unless i go back to get my masters in early education.

why am i writing in LJ?

i'm procrastinating, thats why! HARHAR!

procrastination is like masturbation, you're only screwing yourself in the end...

doh!

i OWNED ant's ass in super smash bros.

wurd.

dear livejournal,

im sorry ive been neglecting you. would you ever forgive me? :( if it makes you feel any better, ive been neglecting my blog also..? O_o hah.

i have no life this semester. save me :(

xo
malesa

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realization of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You are full of stress at this time. It would seem that you are having more than your fair share of trials and tribulations and you are looking for a way out. You are not quite sure which way to go but the advice is - 'Stop trying so hard'.

We are all conditioned by our environment and as such we respond to people's perception of ourselves, but you feel that conditions are not right at this time. You are experiencing certain reservations that are precluding you to develop a particular relationship, business or personal, that is being offered. It is 'make your mind up time' - the decision is all yours, but whatever decision you make, it will be the right one.

You are presently experiencing excessive stress as a result of self-restraint. You act and think differently from the common herd and you want to be liked and admired for yourself and to associate with people who feel and act as you do. Because of this need to be self-reliant and to break away from mediocrity, you are finding this situation most uncomfortable and you are experiencing considerable anxiety - perhaps even more than you feel the capacity to cope with. You need to find a 'soul mate', someone whose standards are as high as your own - but where? Keep on searching... The situation is uncomfortable and you would like to break away from it, but you refuse to compromise with your opinions. You are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of necessary decisions. You are stubborn but this is no deterrent to a happy life, so why drop your standards. Think positively, everything will work out. It has worked out successfully for you in the past and it will again in the future.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.

*10 artists you've been listening a lot to lately:
1) black box recorder
2) metric
3) trembling blue stars
4) outkast -- roses smell like poooo oOOo oOoooooooo. geez. how can i deny that i love outkast.
5) morrissey
6) peaches -- oohh.. the teaches of peaches, how i learn from thee.
8) lost in translation soundtrack -- yeah i know its not an artist. leave me alone.
9) echo by trapt -- i dunno any of their other songs, but this song makes me smile.
10) my totally awesome mix playlists...

*9 things you look forward to:
1) hanauma bay with jillian
2) dinner #^.^#
3) cruise at the end of july
4) summer break from work.
5) min coming back from his vacation in china6) shopping
7) paycheck
8) long lunches... #^.^#
9) spending time with my mum

*8 things you like to wear:
1) uh...clothes...
2) shoes
3) panties
4) what kind of shitty ass category is this?
5)
6)
7)
8)

*7 things that annoy you:
1) people who cant drive (but im kinda of one of them ><)
2) stupid people who don't know they're stupid
3) jordan segundo
4) "reality" shows
5) when the kids dont clean up after themselves.. if theyd put away the toys where they got em, i wouldnt have to pull out my hair because of all the mess.
6) this guy who keeps calling me and doesnt get the hint
7) my messy apt...

6 things you say most days:
1) yo
2) miao
3) rawr
4) stfu?
5) happy [insert day here]!
6) "are you crazy, hello!" this is yelled at to people who cant drive or pretend they dont see me in my car and pull out of driveways, etc, switch lanes or drive 5 mph on the freeway...

*5 things you do everyday:
1) make a phone call
2) talk to myself
3) eat
4) avoid calls
5) eat a gummy vitamin :)

*3 movies you could watch over and over again:
1) donnie darko
2) fight club
3) snatch

*2 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1) love is a place - metric
2) let me kiss you - morrissey

*1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1) uh... if i get a dog... do dogs count? nah just kiddin'.. he'll chase my cat. hmm.. the person i could spend the rest of my life with is the person that could spend the rest of his life with me. hah. he must be able to really tolerate me O.o

im ecstatic. even though finals is coming up.. theres just one thing i cant stop thinking about :) and i havent felt THIS happy in a while.. so this is GOOD. lets just hope i dont mess things up like usual. because if i did, i cant avoid it.

SP151 is sure going to be interesting. HEEHAW. #^.^#

quotable kindergartners:
"BOOBIES! they grow on ladies' stomachs."

i have to admit..

i love the OC.

like omg. i hope ryan and marissa get back together. i give mad propZ to luke for scoring with that MILF. and LIKE OMG! someone DIES in the next episodes. i sure hope its not that CUUTIE PATOOTIE SETHIE. uh huh whut whut.

okay. now that THAT is out of my system..
its time for me to print notes.

Hitokiri 557: do u like that group tatu
Hitokiri 557: the 2 chicks
robotsarefun: hot
robotsarefun: if i was a guy id have an erection
Hitokiri 557: hahahahhahahahaha
Hitokiri 557: but if u were a guy ud have no chance
robotsarefun: yeah
robotsarefun: oh well
robotsarefun: either way i lose

is knowing after you threw away something, it would have been the best thing in your life.

its like that saying..
you dont know what you have till its gone.

nothing melts my heart more than a guy loving kids (and majoring in education)
will you marry me?

xo

we like curry house.


these guys are awesome possums.

im just bored.
yup.

ive been such a bitch lately.
disregarding
ignoring
avoiding
a certain person and/or people
ive just been antisocial.. with a select few.
i brushed off kai. (hes kinda creepy.. but everyone deserves a chance..)
im not gonna show up for shelbys party tomorrow.
i told ca that i cant go to his friend's hotel fiasco because i have to 'study.'
ive been avoiding james.. only because i dont wanna get attached. he probably thinks i hate him and that i dont wanna be friends with him.
and i just havent been keeping in touch with people that i'd like to..
i really dont know whats stopping me.

ive lost my social skills (but then again i never really had much in the first place.)
ive lost my will to maintain friendships or to be social.
i dont exactly know why im acting like this.
for one thing, it could be my period
and another thing could be.. well.. my period
HAH.
nah. this isnt a once a month feeling.
i dunno what it is.

hug? please?

happy valentines day.

a: i think youre beautiful
m: O_o
a: you deserve any guy in the world
a: you shouldnt rant and rave how lonely things are
a: just open your eyes and see
m: >_<
m: i do open my eyes!
m: and all i get are
m: meanies :-(
m: wahh
a: you open one way, but you forgot to look the other way
a: trust me

its nice having friends like aaron.
xo

mates of state+the thermals.

i was there for 86 list and teradactyl. (but the others were alright) its good times my friend. watching the 86 list brought back a lot of high school memories. and the best part about the night was seeing matt there. i missed that buggah. we were talking about our days back in high school. good laughs.

xo

"I've been a bad bad girl
I've been careless with a delicate man
And it's a sad sad world
When a girl will break a boy
Just because she can..."

yes. these lyrics speak to me.
i dont know anymore.. i dont know what i want.
i remember a couple years back.. when someone told me i was very fickle..
[fick?le (fkl) adj. Characterized by erratic changeableness or instability, especially with regard to affections or attachments; capricious.]
of course i felt insulted and denied that i was.
however.. now that i think about it.. i can be.

i tried being with him.
at first he was growing on me a bit..
but after awhile, i got bored.
its not that he's boring..
im just bored.
maybe its because of our lack in common interests.
maybe its because im looking for something else.
something thats probably less tangible for me.
that always seems to be the case.
i have mixed emotions for him.
and im sure hes frustrated with me.
he probably hates me now.
which might be for the best...
because im horrible >_